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普通の痩身と違って太るため特別なダイエット。いわばカロリーインプットはカロリーアウトプット(消費量)より高いってこと。やっぱ一日2500-3000kcalが必要と思う、いろな「食品コンビ」を試して健康的にカロリーを摂取する。まだなんの効果がみえないけど、私は頑張る。
昨日深夜一時すぎテレビチャーンネルで放送した音楽関連のバラエティ番組。一人のアーティストの誕生日祝いにいっぱいサプライズを用意したことをみると以前のハップニングを思い出した。 私には友達があんまりいないので、子供ときからいつも誕生日パーティなどない、誕生日祝いはただ家族と一緒に普通のケーキを食べること。しかし、ある一年、本当の家族だけでなく教会にいた「家族」も私の誕生日祝いに大きいなケーキを買った。本当にビックリした。あの時の「友達」からのプレゼントが遅れたし、「私の親友」と呼ばれる連中が私の誕生日さえ忘れたことも。逆に教会のみんなはそんなに私と仲良くない、それでも金を出して私のために誕生日を祝いした。いま考えると、凄いよ、あの人達は。正直に言って、あの教会にいた時間、大分は楽しかった。神様の真実を勉強して誰を差別しなくてみんなと一緒に神様を誉め称えたこと。 「誠」に素晴らしいだもん *笑*
そのゆえ、考え過ぎになったかもしれないが、またむかしのことがあたまの中にうかべた。そのきおくのなかで一番わすれられないのはわたしはまだ若いがくせいのときに国の交通管理局ではたらいたこと。あれはもうすぐろく年まえのはなしだな。まぁ、くわしい語りはしない。ただ、いっぱいがあったって、わたしはそのきょくのしごとでひとりのおとことであった。あのひとがきらいだった。けちんぼう、しゃべ過ぎ、他愛もないと思った。でもやつのことふかくすきになった。他人の前でわたしによそよそしい態度をとって、あいつは実にわたしを気遣ってくれるやさしいなひと、単純、無邪気と言えるかも。家族のみんなはよくわたしからあいつのことを聞いていたけど一度会うこともない。わたしにとって、あのおとこはすっごく大切なそんざい、いまでもな。あの日からもうあうことがないが、わたしは忘れたくない、その時期にあったことを、そしてあのひとがわたしにくれたその笑顔。えいえんにわすれられないように祈っている。
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Last night, I saw this Korean medical documentary. The first part was about dry skin and how bathing too many times a day and going for "body exfoliation" or whatever that is called will only take away moisture from your skin and damage it. Can't help but agree(recalls the stupid baby brush method). Ah, but nevertheless, I'd rather have dry skin and freckles anyday over oily skin and crap etc. Well, forget that, either way is bad. But with this kind of stupid weather...
Anyway, the doctors inside the documentary recommend using moisturizer within 3 minutes after bathing to "lock" in the moisture.
Okay, now what I wanted to talk about was not that actually. The later part of that was about how barbequed(sp) food causes cancer etc. And to illustrate that, they actually took a few white rats/mices, shaved away the fur on their back and injected benzo...blah blah blah(I forgot the name) into their body. Basically that benzo whatever is cancer-causing.
I actually haven't gotten around to watching them injecting it because I can't bear to watch it and I switched the channel while sobbing. That is not the first time I see "researchers" in that documentary series do such things, like the last time they took 3 really cute looking white rats and injected nicotine for the first, liquor/alcohol(whatever that is called, I forgot the name but it's the main culprit in causing hangovers) into the 2nd one, and both nicotine and that alcohol whatever shit into the 3rd one daily for a certain period of time.
After taking down their reactions(which is really sickening to watch), the next screen shows the three mices being "cut up" and their brains were taken out to see what effects the brain is being dealt with.
I don't know, man...I can't say it's wrong because without all these "experiments", we probably would have been lacking in lotsa information about illnesses, effects etc etc but still...it was really difficult and sick to watch and my heart is all shriveled up now even as I recalled it.
"Is there no other way around this?"
If only there is. I probably feel this way because I like hamsters and hamsters are rodents as well, and they can feel the pain as much as humans do. Like, I still remembered the way the 3rd rat reacted to those disgusting injections, it was the like, the same as how my 3 of my hamsters looked like when they were nearing death. It was a horrible sight and it's really a big heartache for me.
But I guess this is the same as slaughterhouses(and etc). We eat meat everyday and that's how it is. Even though we eat meat, some will probably really hate it if we were to see the slaughtering with our own eyes.
Like, we can't say it's wrong because it's not really wrong to eat meat. What to do then?
Anyway, the doctors inside the documentary recommend using moisturizer within 3 minutes after bathing to "lock" in the moisture.
Okay, now what I wanted to talk about was not that actually. The later part of that was about how barbequed(sp) food causes cancer etc. And to illustrate that, they actually took a few white rats/mices, shaved away the fur on their back and injected benzo...blah blah blah(I forgot the name) into their body. Basically that benzo whatever is cancer-causing.
I actually haven't gotten around to watching them injecting it because I can't bear to watch it and I switched the channel while sobbing. That is not the first time I see "researchers" in that documentary series do such things, like the last time they took 3 really cute looking white rats and injected nicotine for the first, liquor/alcohol(whatever that is called, I forgot the name but it's the main culprit in causing hangovers) into the 2nd one, and both nicotine and that alcohol whatever shit into the 3rd one daily for a certain period of time.
After taking down their reactions(which is really sickening to watch), the next screen shows the three mices being "cut up" and their brains were taken out to see what effects the brain is being dealt with.
I don't know, man...I can't say it's wrong because without all these "experiments", we probably would have been lacking in lotsa information about illnesses, effects etc etc but still...it was really difficult and sick to watch and my heart is all shriveled up now even as I recalled it.
"Is there no other way around this?"
If only there is. I probably feel this way because I like hamsters and hamsters are rodents as well, and they can feel the pain as much as humans do. Like, I still remembered the way the 3rd rat reacted to those disgusting injections, it was the like, the same as how my 3 of my hamsters looked like when they were nearing death. It was a horrible sight and it's really a big heartache for me.
But I guess this is the same as slaughterhouses(and etc). We eat meat everyday and that's how it is. Even though we eat meat, some will probably really hate it if we were to see the slaughtering with our own eyes.
Like, we can't say it's wrong because it's not really wrong to eat meat. What to do then?
おやふこうものとおもっているのに...
かわいそうだな、かあさんは。あのヤロウとけっこんした後、いつもくろうばかり。ながいじかんがたったいま、なにもかわっていない、みるとくやしくたまらない。
*WARNING: This is a looooong entry. After all, old memories are supposed to be "draggy".
A couple of weeks ago, I suddenly recalled something. Why I did I know not, but I remembered I have a huge batch of my singing still kept in my old handphone's audio memory. That's because I used to(few years ago, I don't do that anymore) have the habit of going to sleep and placing my phone on the chair beside my bed. Since I'm not someone who get to sleep that easily, I would play around with my phone in two main ways.
First was to use the melody composer and start composing simple melodies from music I heard from fav artists and video games. I still recall I've done gackt's last song, moi dIx mois' monophobia, aeris' tune, rufus' tune, tunes from suikoden II, langrisser IV etc. And I actually used them as my incoming calls as well as text messages ringing tones. It was lotsa fun now that I think of it.
Second was actually to use the audio recordng function and I'd just sing and record my own singing.
Life can be cruel. Whenever I recall that and how I sold my 2 keyboards, it made me really pissed. Now, at times I will still dream of myself playing the keyboard. But unless I think it's fate, I'm not going to be able to accept that I'm always deprived of things I enjoyed doing and etc. So yeah, it's fate.*sarcastic nod*
Another thing I still kept in that old handphone were actually text messages from the oh-so-nice Mr. Joke. Doesn't matter if you don't know who he is, well he's a very nice person I knew from 7 years back who has always been very nice. I mean, he kept addressing me as "sister" even though he knew I back-slided and whenever I have any questions, he's the only human I will go to.
"I do agree with you that life in general "sucks". But that's how it is to be. Life is about a series of test that we are taking. Pass or fail, I guess we can only depend on God for answers."
"Not exactly. It just looks better, that's all. However, it's the hope of what's beyond that gives great comfort and much strength."
"I think God's grace is both love, forgiveness. Unmeasurable kind, unconditional kind. God forgives in ways we can never imagine. Gives us chances and hopes like none ever gave. The bible says God came for the sick and poor. Which all of us are. Problem is whether we realize it or not."
"Remember, heaven is not to hard to enter when you start to realize and accept God's grace."
"Hey, I'm not that good. Like you. I'm human. All full of sin and flaw. I do sometimes envy others. Compare. But I don't see it as that person being more blessed than me ....we shouldn't compete with others, and we should compare with Christ."
I have had lotsa experiences of getting "advice" from people as what Job did from his 3 friends. Even though they didn't know the cause of Job's affliction and suffering, they gave "encouragement" by condemning Job in every single way and saying things which were not true, in other words, it was sorta like they were making Job feel even worse without helping him and things in any way by their words. God was obviously not happy with what they did. I don't think it's just that of course.
That's why I find it comforting because many times I don't even tell Joke what's really troubling me. But the advice he gave were almost always on the spot it's sorta like He was telling me those things through him.
I'm thankful towards Joke for the patience he showed me. Because all I have been doing for the past 4 to 5 years was kept asking him questions and being really stubborn to not accept his countless invitations to his church. He's not that sort of "okay, ya not going, then forget it.".
Even if someday should he get annoyed, I think it's just his patience meeting the limits. I definitely won't be angry or pissed because to me, his kindness to me through these long years has been very important, especially for someone like me(ya know, the bad guy ^.^). He's really one of the very very few persons who is not my family but whom I wish God will give lotsa blessings to.
A couple of weeks ago, I suddenly recalled something. Why I did I know not, but I remembered I have a huge batch of my singing still kept in my old handphone's audio memory. That's because I used to(few years ago, I don't do that anymore) have the habit of going to sleep and placing my phone on the chair beside my bed. Since I'm not someone who get to sleep that easily, I would play around with my phone in two main ways.
First was to use the melody composer and start composing simple melodies from music I heard from fav artists and video games. I still recall I've done gackt's last song, moi dIx mois' monophobia, aeris' tune, rufus' tune, tunes from suikoden II, langrisser IV etc. And I actually used them as my incoming calls as well as text messages ringing tones. It was lotsa fun now that I think of it.
Second was actually to use the audio recordng function and I'd just sing and record my own singing.
Life can be cruel. Whenever I recall that and how I sold my 2 keyboards, it made me really pissed. Now, at times I will still dream of myself playing the keyboard. But unless I think it's fate, I'm not going to be able to accept that I'm always deprived of things I enjoyed doing and etc. So yeah, it's fate.*sarcastic nod*
Another thing I still kept in that old handphone were actually text messages from the oh-so-nice Mr. Joke. Doesn't matter if you don't know who he is, well he's a very nice person I knew from 7 years back who has always been very nice. I mean, he kept addressing me as "sister" even though he knew I back-slided and whenever I have any questions, he's the only human I will go to.
"I do agree with you that life in general "sucks". But that's how it is to be. Life is about a series of test that we are taking. Pass or fail, I guess we can only depend on God for answers."
"Not exactly. It just looks better, that's all. However, it's the hope of what's beyond that gives great comfort and much strength."
"I think God's grace is both love, forgiveness. Unmeasurable kind, unconditional kind. God forgives in ways we can never imagine. Gives us chances and hopes like none ever gave. The bible says God came for the sick and poor. Which all of us are. Problem is whether we realize it or not."
"Remember, heaven is not to hard to enter when you start to realize and accept God's grace."
"Hey, I'm not that good. Like you. I'm human. All full of sin and flaw. I do sometimes envy others. Compare. But I don't see it as that person being more blessed than me ....we shouldn't compete with others, and we should compare with Christ."
I have had lotsa experiences of getting "advice" from people as what Job did from his 3 friends. Even though they didn't know the cause of Job's affliction and suffering, they gave "encouragement" by condemning Job in every single way and saying things which were not true, in other words, it was sorta like they were making Job feel even worse without helping him and things in any way by their words. God was obviously not happy with what they did. I don't think it's just that of course.
That's why I find it comforting because many times I don't even tell Joke what's really troubling me. But the advice he gave were almost always on the spot it's sorta like He was telling me those things through him.
I'm thankful towards Joke for the patience he showed me. Because all I have been doing for the past 4 to 5 years was kept asking him questions and being really stubborn to not accept his countless invitations to his church. He's not that sort of "okay, ya not going, then forget it.".
Even if someday should he get annoyed, I think it's just his patience meeting the limits. I definitely won't be angry or pissed because to me, his kindness to me through these long years has been very important, especially for someone like me(ya know, the bad guy ^.^). He's really one of the very very few persons who is not my family but whom I wish God will give lotsa blessings to.
Actually, the entry has nothing to do with the title. I just want to put that title, that's all. It's sorta like my new "catchaphrase" *nods*
Yeah, those who read my blog from way back years knows that sometimes I don't post for a week, sometimes I post twice or even 3 times(as rare as the birthmark on our family dog's nose) a day. And I always like to use Miyavi as an example because he has the record of posting multiple entries in a day, it ain't nothing wrong. But I know some people can get really anal over small things like this I don't know why, but that's the reason for me always going through the trouble to edit the code for my blog template to remove the date function, so no one will know exactly when I post an entry.
Btw,
http://health.yahoo.com/experts/gabbyguide/8717/basic-weight-loss-mistakes/
I heard this somewhere: "If losing weight is that easy, the slimming centres won't open one after another."
Like, losing weight is not that easy, that's true. But it's not THAT difficult until you HAVE to go to a slimming centre, otherwise it's not gonna work.
I had this gal friend a few years back. She's a foreigner(it has nothing to do with being a foreigner anyway) studying in the school and I remembered having a short "argument" with her about slimming down.
She was saying that so long as one has the money, going to slimming centres will surely make one slim. I can't totally disagree with that because it's true that you can change completely how you look when you have the money, but if you are really seriously overweight, you don't go to the slimming centre, you go to a doctor. What makes her think that everyone who needs to lose weight can surely lose weight by going to a slimming centre? And what makes her think that slimming centres are special locations with miracle potions or creams or advanced equipment to get rid of the excess weight with a blink of an eye?
Furthermore, since when is losing weight losing fat? I was 45kg a few years back with 18% bodyfat and now I'm 42kg but with 21% bodyfat. There are other factors that affect the figures but it shows that just because your weight is lesser does not stand for sure that you are thinner(a.k.a less fat).
Unfortunately, the way nature functions is sometimes annoying. Since you CANNOT spot-reduce, it's really somewhat not wise for girls to go all cardio and whatsoever to lose most of that fat in the body when you want big breasts because so far I have never know of any woman who can have 10% bodyfat and that 7%of that is totally accumulated at the chest area naturally because that's not how the human body works.
So the best advice I can give for these type of ladies: you can go and lose the fat on your whole body through exercise and aim for a 15-16% bodyfat but make sure you have enough money for a boob job. That way, you'll get the perfect body every guy adores.
If not, well, just make do with what you are given and throw a chair towards anyone who insults your body proportions and smash his/her face against the wall. After all, in almost everything in everywhere in this world. perfect=fake, fake=perfect.
Yeah, those who read my blog from way back years knows that sometimes I don't post for a week, sometimes I post twice or even 3 times(as rare as the birthmark on our family dog's nose) a day. And I always like to use Miyavi as an example because he has the record of posting multiple entries in a day, it ain't nothing wrong. But I know some people can get really anal over small things like this I don't know why, but that's the reason for me always going through the trouble to edit the code for my blog template to remove the date function, so no one will know exactly when I post an entry.
Btw,
http://health.yahoo.com/experts/gabbyguide/8717/basic-weight-loss-mistakes/
I heard this somewhere: "If losing weight is that easy, the slimming centres won't open one after another."
Like, losing weight is not that easy, that's true. But it's not THAT difficult until you HAVE to go to a slimming centre, otherwise it's not gonna work.
I had this gal friend a few years back. She's a foreigner(it has nothing to do with being a foreigner anyway) studying in the school and I remembered having a short "argument" with her about slimming down.
She was saying that so long as one has the money, going to slimming centres will surely make one slim. I can't totally disagree with that because it's true that you can change completely how you look when you have the money, but if you are really seriously overweight, you don't go to the slimming centre, you go to a doctor. What makes her think that everyone who needs to lose weight can surely lose weight by going to a slimming centre? And what makes her think that slimming centres are special locations with miracle potions or creams or advanced equipment to get rid of the excess weight with a blink of an eye?
Furthermore, since when is losing weight losing fat? I was 45kg a few years back with 18% bodyfat and now I'm 42kg but with 21% bodyfat. There are other factors that affect the figures but it shows that just because your weight is lesser does not stand for sure that you are thinner(a.k.a less fat).
Unfortunately, the way nature functions is sometimes annoying. Since you CANNOT spot-reduce, it's really somewhat not wise for girls to go all cardio and whatsoever to lose most of that fat in the body when you want big breasts because so far I have never know of any woman who can have 10% bodyfat and that 7%of that is totally accumulated at the chest area naturally because that's not how the human body works.
So the best advice I can give for these type of ladies: you can go and lose the fat on your whole body through exercise and aim for a 15-16% bodyfat but make sure you have enough money for a boob job. That way, you'll get the perfect body every guy adores.
If not, well, just make do with what you are given and throw a chair towards anyone who insults your body proportions and smash his/her face against the wall. After all, in almost everything in everywhere in this world. perfect=fake, fake=perfect.
俺を躯り立てる激しさは
君の微笑みに愈された
照れくさくて言えないけど 君のことを守っていたい -->ばか
愛だ ぬくもりだ くだらない -->一理ある
何も 守らない 信じない
俺が触れた全てのもの坏すだけさ
今は憎しみが燃える -->賛成
笑き夸る孤独な月 闇の中で搖れてぃる
そう ひとりでいい 炎は月夜の破片
空を染めてゆく茜色
なぜか優しさを感じてる
誰もがみな大事な人胸に灯す -->あたまが悪い
まるで夕陽のように
夜が来て深い闇が 街や人を包んでも
そう 消せやしない 心のぬくもりだけは -->死ね
笑き夸る孤独な月 闇の中で搖れている
そう ひとりでいい 炎は月夜の破片
といっても、私は八神が大嫌い。
はい、【その他】に話を移しましょう。
「豚のような生き方、豚のような食べ方、豚のような生活。それでも肌がきれい～きれい。かみさまはいったい何を示してほしい？」
私は何処かでその面白いことを見て反論ができずに冷ややかな笑いが出った。その反応は「この世でいっぱい不公平がある」という事に慣れたわけ...まぁ、いつまでも慣れるとは言えないけどな。私はタダ、あれは誰の仕業と問いたい。答えは多分「悪魔」だね。ほーんとうに汚い奴だな。それが知っているけど、被害者の私はやはり「ひとりひとりは特別」ような甘い話を受けられない。
以上のは他人と関係ない。お前が色々ものを手にするのはいい。私は例外だから、すこしでも文句を言いたいだけ。誰を侮辱するつもりはない。もちろん、私のことを何も知らないくせに、「クズクズするな、ちゃんと行動して問題を越えて、未来へ歩け、チョップーチョップ！」など言わないで、うるさいから。私は普通の人達より一生懸命頑張る、それは神様しか分からない、「局外者」は黙れ。私は一番耐えられないはの無知なアドバイス。
1)A: 事故でしばらく視力がちょっと悪いけど、あとすこし(一年ぐらい)はっきり見える状態に戻る
2)B: 目が見えない
AはBに目を治すのアドバイスをもらうのはいいのか？ ちょっと同じだが、正直に言って、よく口を利くね。AはBの苦しみがどこまで分かる？ さきも言ったよ、少々同じとしても、Bの状況を経験するなどない、自分は全てが分かるような真似、ただ自惚れるでしょう？ だめだよ、人は喋る前に頭を使わないとね、自分だけでなく、他人の立場も考えて、良い言葉が出られないと黙ってそのままでいいよ。ふふ、それは母に言えばいいなぁ...
まぁ、今日は機嫌がすっごく悪いから、ちょっと無礼な言葉を。でもね、ここは私のブログ、そこまで言う権利があるはず。またな。
Also called Code of the Samurai for the Europe release. I'd recommend it to any gamer. It's not really just a hack-and-slash action game though, it's more than hack-and-slash.
It has become one of my favorite games(I played the Europe version). I enjoyed it a lot, not to mention the beautiful artwork's drawn by Wazuki(for those who don't know, he's the one who drew the Rurouni Kenshin manga series, okay my favorite artwork is really still from Urushihara-sensei though), and what's more, it's about Shinsengumi, my most respected historical figures. Really nice game.
Btw, yesterday, I looked into the mirror and discovered something about my eyes. And after that, I paid attention to the eyes of the celebrities I saw on TV. And after that, I feel a bit apologetic.
Anyway, I want to have a beef burger, beef pasta and beef noodles. Seriously speaking, I really think it's about time my mom stop her "can't eat beef at home" household law. I mean, she can choose not to eat beef for herself, but why must there be a RULE for everyone to not eat beef while inside the house? Whether do you eat or not doesn't make you better. It's not as though I'm gonna force her to have it as well while I'm eating. It feels so one-sided because everyone else doesn't mind, only she's all insistent on it.
It has become one of my favorite games(I played the Europe version). I enjoyed it a lot, not to mention the beautiful artwork's drawn by Wazuki(for those who don't know, he's the one who drew the Rurouni Kenshin manga series, okay my favorite artwork is really still from Urushihara-sensei though), and what's more, it's about Shinsengumi, my most respected historical figures. Really nice game.
Btw, yesterday, I looked into the mirror and discovered something about my eyes. And after that, I paid attention to the eyes of the celebrities I saw on TV. And after that, I feel a bit apologetic.
Anyway, I want to have a beef burger, beef pasta and beef noodles. Seriously speaking, I really think it's about time my mom stop her "can't eat beef at home" household law. I mean, she can choose not to eat beef for herself, but why must there be a RULE for everyone to not eat beef while inside the house? Whether do you eat or not doesn't make you better. It's not as though I'm gonna force her to have it as well while I'm eating. It feels so one-sided because everyone else doesn't mind, only she's all insistent on it.
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