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寛大な私に、我慢の限界が終にくる。

長いじかんがたった今、やっとわかる、わたしはもう以前の優しいあねを失った。
ですが、大丈夫よ、それはしかたないから。女にとって、おっとは一番大切な存
在だと分かる...が、人がそこまでかわるのゆえ、血のつながりはなんともないに
なるということは、やっぱ残念。

(My hands are free from anyone's blood...even if someday my own is included. 
God is witness)


(幸福难找...)

Congratulations, Joke!

I don't think he will get to read this on time, or ever, but seriously, I still so wanna jot it down here. 

Joke got married today! I couldn't make it for his church wedding (I am so sorry!, even though I wanted to go soooo badly) but WOW, I'm so so so happy for him! Like, probably as happy as if I was the one getting married lol, ok, maybe not that much, but still, what joy! 

I remember those days at our taekwondo lessons, when we were still studying in the polytechinics...my, time really goes by so fast. We were all so young back then and probably these kind of things never ever crossed our minds, but looking at him now, having gotten himself a fabulous wife, I'm really so glad!

To be able to feel this joy for a very precious friend and brother, really is a marvelous thing. May God bind both of them together with blessings and love forever.

Is

 it because people are biased? or is it really because they 根本不给我面子?


You smile to one who torment others and despises one who try so hard to be nice and to fit in.


But with a clear conscience we live our lives in simplicity and godly sincerity. We did nothing wrong towards God or to men.

That's why when faced with such situations, as always,  the only thing that can be pointed out when I cannot say or do much is: wisdom is justified by her children.

i

am sad, because i fear many things. Then there are people who keep making me feel miserable. But that doesnt mean im gonna give up. So please dont give up on me as well.

lotsa complaints

1. sorethroat. hurts like crazy. can't talk. 2. The sort of treatment and situation im in and is getting makes me feel like I feel like im living the same nightmare all over again. i really hope not though. 3. I feel really unwell. 4. I feel empty. 5. I feel helpless and lost. 6. I spend my days in a daze. 7. Why am i being trampled on by people like this and still have to force myself to forgive and let it past? 8. I don't need people to like me, i just wish they give me the respect as to a fellow human. I don't need anyone to make me happy, i just wish no one will do anything to make me sad. 9. I won't let anyone have control over me. 10. Power is running low, entering low batt mode.

lol

im stupid. feel cheated.

wrote tis frm my hp.

bt tats only coz of my 2nd sis wireless, so heres a tks. Tis morn i got a call after a bad dream. Feel really horrible nw. But relax, i told myself... So tired. I need something to perk me up.