いとしいひと

頑張って下さい。

私もあきらめませんから。
 

bleh bleh bleh

...frustrated, fed up, irritated, agitated, infuriated, disgusted, tired, tired, tired.


Whenever I see them, I grow really envious. How I wish I can do the things I enjoy doing and not worry over anything. 





I like Kamijo, though his vocals are far from what i consider marvelous, still it's good.

I know

I may be expecting too much. No matter how strong I think of one to be or hope for one to be, humans are just humans.

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge.

It must be present as the basis for all thoughts which will lead to all doings.

Foolishness is a sin as well.

Perhaps it doesn't really matter what others are and what others do, for whatever they were, it makes no difference to me, for those who seemed to be something added nothing to me.

Each one stands and falls before God. It's just that simple. 

When we submit to His wisdom in everything, we can fear Him truthfully, love Him sincerely and serve Him effectively.



Recently I fall sick alot. Prevention is better than cure.

A happiness that you don't know whether will pass away, mingled with much sadness of uncertainty.

Laughing while you are crying, and crying while you are laughing.

Makes me treasure Him a lot because of the absolute certainty of His everlasting and faithful love.

Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. I just hope He will help me to be able to, because He said so.

Even as my heart is weeping badly, "Rejoice, my soul, in the Lord."

No one

can force you to do what you don't want to. We have freedom of choice, in all things.

Though it often goes beyond me why people often speak without thinking -probably because so many times I was the victim of unthoughtful and destructive words I learnt to be cautious in whatever goes forth from my mouth - still I think it all comes down to one thing: lack of wisdom.

If only...really, if only many people can think before they speak, many hearts need not be broken, many minds need not go insane, many tears need not drop, many lives need not be crushed, much love need not grow cold.

The tongue is the source of much disaster. Speak the wrong things, and it may ruin a person.

Received

a reply from Esther.

It's really encouraging for me.  It's just beyond description how edifying it is to hear gracious words of wisdom from a godly person.

She has been really kind to me, even much more than Joke was. May God bless her and her family greatly.

...

-わからない。一人をあいし続くことはそんなに難しいなのか？ かみさまはひとり
ひとりにこころをひとつひとつだけ与えたはずなのに。

-わからない。かれしがいるし、子もいる。なぜ他人のこいびとを狙うなのか？

-わからない。ひとのそばにはかみさまがいなくても、悪いことをするのは当然か？
 

わからない。私は、にんげんがこわい。

つかれた...眠りたい。

Been

in a bad physical condition these days.

So tired, and disappointed.



Updates on me, as is my habit from time to time...


Currently thinking: HIM, and him.

Currently wishing: Let me hear joy and gladness, that the bones You have broken may rejoice.

Currently watching: Taiga drama Ryouma den, the usual SMAPxSMAP

Currently reading: My Utmost for His Highest, 三國演義, the usual RD and etc magazines, 窓ぎわのトットちゃん

Currently listening: Versailles - Jubilee album

Currently playing: Haven't touched my controller for a long time, but I'm still halfway through my first play through the JPN.ver of Suikoden 4, though I have already completed the US version twice.

Currently learning: Fur Elise, Turkish March. Okay, don't laugh >.> Everything starts from easy.

Currently trying to change: stop saying "ちくしょう" everytime something or someone irritates me.

Currently wanting to eat: salmon sashimi

 Currently aiming: to continue maintaining a sane schedule, a sane body, a sane heart and a sane mind.