Tired

as always.

Went to see the doc and as always she said the same thing. Good I guess, though feeling unwell almost daily doesn't make me any happier. I can only hope I don't feel so sad and troubled by a certain someone everyday because it's definitely not helping things but rather making me sicker.

4 days to go

and it's back to amk...I suppose.

I can't ever believe I made it till so far, all thanks be to God.

The human mind can never fathom just exactly how mighty and great God is.

だきしめたい

短時間に会えない、こころもう痛い。今日は遠く場所からあなたを見ると、さびしくてたまらない。そこまであなたを愛する、なぜ届かない？ それとも、あなたもう知っている？ わからない。かなしい。これからはもっと長いの時期に会えない。わたしは、暫くの辛抱で毎日はあなたと会える未来が来るように祈る。
 

irksome

How I wish I can say it out loud to relay it across "You trouble me greatly, I don't know what you are thinking, and unless I do or if it's nothing, don't smile, don't come near me and stay away."

And one won't ever go to heaven for being the kindest and most loving person in the world, nor will one go to hell for not believing in Jesus. Unless one understands the details regarding God's holy nature, human's sinful nature, and Jesus' death on the cross and resurrection, you will always get stuck on the misconception that Christians are proud morons who think they are holier than you and that Christianity is discriminating of other people's religions. Furthermore, street evangelism is not old or ineffective as compared to other forms of evangelism, because God doesn't get more modern as the world gets modern. He is the same always, and those whom He called, whichever method he chooses for them to evangelize with according to His will, will always be for the good and pleasing to Him, even if "modern" people call it street peddling.

dizzy

and giddy and nauseous. How torturous.

And that guy pisses me to no end. A man should behave like a real man.

*unwell*

Health is important. Without it, can't function.

BTW, I went and cut off 20+inches of my hair today, that makes it 40++cm. Heart pain, but still it was necessary.

The happiest person is probably my mum. But seriously, 4 years of growing it was no easy feat. But long hair or not doesn't change how much God loves me,so I will try to take it easy.

...

わたしのいとしい人よ。あなたのあいがほしい、わたしをあいしてください。あなたのため、なんでもする、なにもなる。 だから、そばにいて、ふたりだけ、死ぬときまで。