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couple of days back, I saw uncle Billy. The very same uncle Billy I mentioned in a much much much earlier entry. I was really surprised coz it has been so long since I last saw him...probbaly nearly 7 years. He totally don't remember me I presume...but well if he does, I wonder if it made any difference.

Coming week or so is gonna be tough, hope I make it through to make another entry at the end of it. God bless me.

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Will a person be able to live alone?
With the disappointment from countless separations?

No one will desire a fake rose that doesn't wither.

The encounter, the pain, the sadness, the loneliness, the words, the demeanor, the smiles, the kindness.


Putting that aside, 

http://kaya-rose.com/pc/index.php

New single. Didn't like last snow, so I had really wanted a maxi or something like that this time round, don't know why. But nevermind. As usual, how pretty.

ridiculous

people, ridiculous life.

I don't know about others, and I don't care about others. I'm sick and tired of being a doormat.

I think perhaps all I need are just some expressions of sympathy, but I don't get it. Then I was told "if all you need are words of comfort, just ask for them. It's easy to get some."

Yeah, it's easy to. But who really care enough to really understand how frustrated I am, to help me, or to encourage me?

To be frank, I just need someone to "get angry" together with me, to understand how angry I am that I'm being pushed around and being treated unfairly.

Help me.

Had

hope I have more of such days where I can just laze around and do nothing =)

Woke up

late, had bad dreams. Had a long QT, cleaned my room, ate some stuff, calculated some stuff, and it's nearing 6pm. Time is never enough, so I'll just let it go and take my power nap now.

Good news though, is that my teacher Esther is back from the US. Yeah! =D Hearing it made me really happy.

Sleepy, sleepy, sleepy. I've still got stacks of newspapers for me to browse through, but...I guess i'll just leave it for later...

We must

mean what we say, and we must do what we say, whether anyone's watching or not. Because God's watching.

Whenever I think of a public holiday approaching, I'm not particularly happy, because it just means more people, and I\m still not a crowd person...after so much time. crap.

I'm so gonna snap.

Sometimes I find everything so loathsome. Everyone only care about themselves, like the world revolves around them.

Just now, I wrote something, only a couple of lines and I stopped. Forget it. Words can't enter an ironhead. No matter what I say, ppl just treat it as junk, go in one side, come out from the other side. Okay, maybe it is after all. Bleh.

Lately I have been quite crude and rude, totally lacking in...what was that word? ...oh yeah, decorum. I got so sick of mysef behaving this way...I wasn't like this before...okay, not really, but not as bad. Maybe I should just go see a doctor someday soon and take a mc, and take a cab down to the beach at midnight and scream my lungs out and spend the whole night there...in a self-pitched tent. Then the next morning, I will jump into the sea and maybe I will feel better getting everything out...okay, maybe not, because I will most likely drown, considering how I can't swim.

Sleepy...but able to rest today!

Saw this at a friend eugene's wall on facebook:

-Disappointment is the reflection of your passion towards something, If you don’t care about something, you wouldn’t be feeling disappointed.-

True statement.

Btw, I went to another church today, and attended the mandarin service. I probably really overrated my mandarin ability to some extent by thinking I should be able to understand everything, but still I get things 90% of the time...thankfully.

I completed something last night, and sent it for final work today. I hope I can get it back by Friday, because otherwise, it's gonna be a longer wait.